With the prospect of possibly seeing WoW TBC coming out again within the next year, I constantly find myself fantasizing about living my life in a way so that I can maximize my time playing it. I'm talking about in a dramatic way too: something along the lines of getting a hotel night clerk position (so i can play at work) and living as frugal as possible to avoid expenses. The thing is though, is that I know I would be forced to give up quite a bit to get to that point.... but I still find myself thinking that's what I want. It sounds insane to type it out here, but I'm not sure I've ever had as much fulfillment in life as those years in high school grinding away with my friends to be the most competitive WoW player that I could, especially with the arena system in TBC.
Right now, it feels like I have quite a bit going for me too. I achieved one of my dreams of getting into medical school, fell in love with an amazing woman, have really worked on myself so that I really like who I am now; yet, most of these achievements seems like it wouldn't be nearly as fun as being able to grind at WoW with the vast majority of my time. Really, it seems like I would be happier just saying "eff you" to the standard route of happiness and trading it in for what might be considered a low standard of living.
There's just something about WoW that seems just so much better than reality. I've never felt the level of acceptance, desirability, or possibly even fulfillment as back in the day when I spent the majority of my time there. I've heard of people giving up careers, families, or, even health to follow their passion of snowboarding or skydiving; is this really different? The examples i gave do seem to actually be pretty happy.
I think about what my life will look like in ten years, and I do think I would be much worse off on this path. I know that people in their 70's often get depressed if they haven't had children, and sometimes virtual relationships just can't be counted on for life's tougher problems. Also, Life's expensive, no matter how frugal you are and maybe some emergency will come along that a 12$ an hour job can't afford. It seems like it must be foolish to dedicate yourself to a video game, and it is probably because it is.
instead of taking this leap, however, I've also wondered if I should just change my life now in a way that i can get the same fulfillment i got through endless grinding with my buds. Looking objectively at my behavior, I know that I often don't take the same initiative to interact with people in real life that I did in WoW. It was just so much easier for me to ask people to help in a dungeon or to join my pvp team than to ask people to go to dinner or hang out in anyway in real life. It seems that needing people around me has always felt weak and that independence in the real world is what people find honorable.
The disgusting part of living in a first world country to me is that we buy all our tools, food, and even housing in a way so that asking our friends or neighbors for help is the last thing that we want to do. For example, instead of a cul-de-sac collectively buying a cost-effective and time saving riding lawnmower, each household feels they need to buy their own push mower so that they don't have to work with and depend on each other. In video games, you're forced to work together or you can't play at all. An even more direct example is concept working as infantry in the military or existing as our ancestors did in close nit tribes just barely able to get by: the need to be perceived as independent quickly goes away because your life depends on being utilized and utilizing the people around you.
I can't remember the names or even the time period, but I know there were these philosophers that created
these experiments to determine the optimum amount of happiness a human can have. They found the way they created the most happiness is by having people living in close nit communities that had just enough resources to have their bodies needs met. Maybe something like a monastery or one of those hippie compounds that people always make fun of. Maybe my best life would to be founding a gaming community based on principles like that were people had time to dedicate to their passions because they didn't have to constantly worry about their mortgage. I don't think I could ever pull the plug and try something like that, but I do recognize the way I live now was never how we humans were evolved to live like. For now though, I think ill just remain a cog in the capitalist machine but do my best to look for opportunities to reach out in my community and try to live a little less independent.
Didn't athene (best paladin in the world) make a cult like gaming community? predictably, I think it went off the rails and did some really crazy sh*t.