This thread is to discuss how the 45th president's administration has directly affected your health, and how it might in the future. The ACA is very likely to be repealed, and news around the presidency is very upsetting to many people. Please keep it civil, but realize that there may be passionate discussion and it may not be pretty.
I'll quote some comments from "The Trump Administration" topic to kick things off.
Farscry wrote:BadKen wrote:
I've pretty much given up. I'm one bad day away from jumping in front of a train. I am not joking. I got a dog to give my life some purpose, but as adorable as he is, it's really not working.
I'm playing a lot of games to avoid thinking about the real world.
Quite frankly, I'm not too far removed from where you're at. It's a real struggle not to give in to despair.
I don't know if this will help or hurt and this probably isn't the place to LiveJournal all over, but... here goes.
The ACA going away will likely end my life. I'm HIV+, depend on access to meds that cost 2k/month and my HIV is considered a pre-existing condition thanks to a lapse in coverage in the past. Despair? I've got plenty. I spent the night of the election researching physician assisted suicide because I know what a death to AIDS looks like. It's not something I want to deal with. I don't want the last memories I leave loved ones with to be memories of me wasting away and dying to a opportunistic infection. Been there. It sucks.
But you know what? I'm not dead yet and am not in a hurry to rush that along. I have health coverage through 2017. When the ACA topples, Ryan White might be able to keep me on meds longer. Once I lose access to meds, that's when the clock really starts ticking. I'll probably survive a year or two before my health really declines. That's still a lot of time left for me to fight. A lot of time for me to make great and lasting memories with those I'm closest to. So now that I've figured out how I want to die and who I want surrounding me if and when it gets to that point, I'm also planning trips with my partner. I'm putting money into ACLU, Lambda Legal and the Trevor Project. I'm finding outlets here where I can be more involved in my community and a little bit less of the introverted recluse I default to.
I'm a swirling mixture of hope and despair and have been for 3 weeks. I've found people to lean on when the despair is overwhelming and when it's manageable I reach out to be that support for someone else.
I have a regular psychiatrist, and he's pretty good about keeping on top of stuff. The problem I have right now is that my MDD has kicked in, in full effect, and when it takes over, I get stupid and can't do anything. Rationally I know what is wrong, I know depression lies, I have been through these low points many times. Knowing that doesn't help, though, because my mind does not behave rationally when it is in this state. It's like trying to have a conversation with an angry gorilla. Reasoned debate is not going to help.
I won't visit the GWJ depression thread any more after I got a dressing down about a comment I made there some time ago. The way I feel is that if people expect only positive supporting comments there, it's utterly worthless for me.