I once wrote a thread about being depressed and a lot of people responded. And in the end in looked like it helped a lot of people. So I figured I would try this again. And it's going to be a long post.
So as the title says, I feel terrible. To more accurately describe it, I'm tired all the time. I'll describe the symptoms as best as I can, and then I'll try to list the things I've done to try and figure out what is wrong with me.
First, I never feel rested. No matter how much I sleep I never feel alert and rested. I also regularly want to go to sleep during the day. The longer I wait without caving in, the more my personality changes and I become meaner and meaner, less able to do anything other than go to sleep. Now this isn't a I didn't get enough sleep type of tired, it's a my body is exhausted type tired.
My libido is also gone.
I also can't focus and my cognitive functions are way lower than they used to be. I have a degree in Computer Science and Math, and I never had to study. I picked up on things very quickly and now I struggle to process things. My reading comprehension is lower and my general speed on understanding things. It seems my memory is also worse.
This is ruining my life and no one can seem to tell me what is wrong with me, below are the things I've had check/tried.
1. Gastrointestinal test: everything is good
2. Stress test /EKG: everything is good
3. General blood work: vitamin levels are good
4. Sleep study: sleep better than most people
5. Psychological evaluation: I'm not depressed
6. Cortisol test: normal
7. Thyroid: normal
8. Cortisol test: normal
9. Hormones: free testosterone is higher than normal, and other levels are balanced
10. Removed grains/starches/sugars from my diet as part of the GI test for 2 months as well as taking vitamins: No effect on the way I felt
11. Exercised regularly: I had to stop because I would fall asleep at work
From what I can tell this has been going on with a great severity for about 3 years, perhaps longer but it's hard for me to say because it's been so long. FYI, I'm 34 now. Also it's only been within the past half year or so that I've tried to manage it because I can't seem to make it go away.
By manage it I mean that I just accept that I have to crash out. And my friends understand that if I don't I end up not being a nice person or even being able to function.
It's pretty much ruining my life. The cognitive part is very scary to me, and the fact that I have no energy makes me not even want to take a vacation because I won't be able to enjoy it. I can barely read a book and I don't even enjoy playing games like I used to because it's like I'm in a fog because of the way my body feels.
So here is my call for help. I've gone to a lot of doctor's and I've spent a lot of money trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I wanted to write this post a long time ago but I have a hard time doing much of anything because of my mind. But my call for help is now because I think I'm about to give up, I don't know what else to do, and I've spent so much money trying to figure out what's wrong.
If you know of THE doctor that will be able to help, even if I have to fly to see them or whatever, but they can help me please let me know. I don't want to slowly wither away like this, I want my life back. I apologize if the message is disjoint.