Depression is ruining my life.

You have your therapist, and your partner, so you are not alone. That should be a mantra for you, although just knowing that won't fix anything, I get that. Are you taking anything that could help with this process?

Nothing as of yet. Just working hard on mindfulness, being in the moment, exercise and sleep. All the go to things. They do help though.

I saw real benefit from a conversation with a psychiatrist. Anxiety from OCD and ADHD. Treated the OCD, the ADHD is a work advantage. But it still took my anxiety down to manageable levels.

Anyway, I hope you can work through things soon.