Good thoughts for Phoenix Rev appreciated

And if you have cash left over, take that Hello Kitty mirage and make it hop! Maybe some pink ground effects would be cool too

Phishposer wrote:

I wouldn't have thrown a bit into the pot if I didn't trust you to put it to good use.

Toss me in with the rest of the "do what you want" camp. I tossed in the money because you need it and wanted to help out. However you want to prioritize that money is up to you.

I'm in, I'm glad I can help out. I forgot to put my GWJ name in there, but I think you know my real name? Let me know if I need to pm you.

m0nk3yboy wrote:
Quintin_Stone wrote:
Bonus_Eruptus wrote:

I was going to insist on a Hello Kitty paint job, but I could trust others to demand that in my stead.

So I'm content with you making Q-Stone cry. Haven't seen that since he asked me what my oysters got me for Christmas.

EDIT: s/oysters/parents/. Shalalm Baskur

MY OYSTERS ARE DEAD!

Poor Yellek ;)

I imagine she's quite pleased by the situation.

Hey, folks.

I have attempted to express my personal gratitude to all who have helped with my donation fund. However, I am struggling to identify several people who contributed but I cannot connect their real life names with their Goodjer names.

If you did NOT receive a personal PM from me, would you please drop me a PM and let me know your name so I can issue the appropriate expressions of gratitude?

Thanks!

Use whatever I sent for good or evil, I really don't care so long as you derive enjoyment out of its use.

Good evening all.

I wanted to let you know that the left over funds went toward the purchase of a new car for me: a Kia Soul, which is very roomy for us big guys.

Here is a photo of the car which is Titanium Gray with sparkles in the paint. There was no Hello Kitty edition, but the sparkles are perfect. And, honestly, what sort of gay man doesn't need more sparkles in his life?

I introduce you to... Jasper.

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Thank you all so very, very much for the love and support.

You will never know how much it has meant to me and to Rubb.

Yay for community and friends! We love you guys.

Ooooooooh, jelly! Glad to hear you guys were able to get something you needed! *big hugs*

That is freaking awesome!

I soooo needed some good news to get me through the rest of the day, and you have delivered!

Let's go to the mall!

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PRev wrote:

There was no Hello Kitty edition, but the sparkles are perfect.

Easily remedied.

You might appreciate this then. I saw this when I was in Hawaii.

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Nomad wrote:
PRev wrote:

There was no Hello Kitty edition, but the sparkles are perfect.

Easily remedied.

If that's not your bid at $20.99 PR then there is something wrong with this planet.

kazar wrote:

You might appreciate this then. I saw this when I was in Hawaii.

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A Hello Kitty Hummer... Sounds like something RubbEdd might already be well versed at 'administering'

A reliable car makes a huge difference. Good choice! Enjoy it!

m0nk3yboy wrote:

A Hello Kitty Hummer... Sounds like something RubbEdd might already be well versed at 'administering' ;)

Oh god, I can't stop laughing.

m0nk3yboy wrote:

A Hello Kitty Hummer... Sounds like something RubbEdd might already be well versed at 'administering' ;)

Your name has been written on a sheet of paper and check mark has been placed next to it.

Phoenix Rev wrote:
m0nk3yboy wrote:

A Hello Kitty Hummer... Sounds like something RubbEdd might already be well versed at 'administering' ;)

Your name has been written on a sheet of paper and check mark has been placed next to it.

Dude, that is so much more ominous than you intended...

Chumpy_McChump wrote:
Phoenix Rev wrote:
m0nk3yboy wrote:

A Hello Kitty Hummer... Sounds like something RubbEdd might already be well versed at 'administering' ;)

Your name has been written on a sheet of paper and check mark has been placed next to it.

Dude, that is so much more sexy than you intended... :)

FTFY

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More names. More check marks.

Y'shua is trying very hard to love the Goodjers right now.

Yeah! I made the 'nice' naughty list

Phoenix Rev wrote:

More names. More check marks.

Y'shua is trying very hard to love the Goodjers right now.

m0nk3yb0y is really aiming for more checkmarks.

Phoenix Rev wrote:

More names. More check marks.

Y'shua is trying very hard to love the Goodjers right now.

Lucky that He's so good at it, then.

He's making a list and checking it twice?

I am desperately trying to figure out what universal message I am supposed to be getting because, right now, the message I am getting is, "Here, let me throw another 40-ton boulder at you."

Today was the latest visit to the neurologist. This came on the heels of the unexpected death of political cartoonist Mike Ritter who shared an office with me when we worked together at the student newspaper at Arizona State University. It also came on the heels of our benefits adviser - the one helping me with the disability process - stepping out to do a Sunday BBQ this past weekend and ending up with 3rd degree burns over 35% of his body when the gas BBQer exploded when he was lighting it.

I got to my neurologist's office and he entered moments later, pulled up my chart on the computer and we discussed the MS diagnosis and the continuing headaches. Five minutes into the conversation, I fell apart. He immediately stopped the conversation and asked what I needed him to do. I told him that the fatigue was horrible, the libido was still very high, and because of the MS, my fingertips were numb. He said he had read the report from the spinal tap and said he was sorry the headaches were not related so there could be some closure there. He took down copious notes and then wrote down all of the scripts I have had since last year when this all started (March 28, 2013). Twenty-three scripts with no relief from the headaches. He wrote up #24 and #25 freely admitting that these were a roll of the dice.

He also said he could do something with the libido, but it would be drastic and would pretty much stop my libido from working until the medication wore off. As much as I have found great disdain for the continual sexual arousal disorder, being completely without a sex drive is not acceptable. So, I have passed on the option.

Then, he mentioned that the last round of tests came back and the "area of concern" in my brain is now being considered a lesion associated with the MS and seems to be growing. The other lesions are growing as well, and he said he was expediting my follow up with the MS specialist and sending me to a migraine specialist to see if she knows of any new information or treatment options to help fix things. He also hinted at some surgical options.

As we wrapped up, he asked how I was doing and I said I was okay, which we both knew was not true. And, because my libido was in overload and my neurologist is a exceptionally handsome and sexy Middle Eastern man who decided to grow out his beard, I could only thing of two things: how embarrassed I was that I broke down in front of him and that I wanted to rip his clothes off.

I then had to do some errands, and when I got home, I was treated to this news:

A former Brophy College Preparatory teacher was sentenced Monday morning to one year in prison for sexually abusing students in the 1980s.

That would be my former Vectors and Limits math teacher. He was a colossal a-hole then. He is a vile excuse for a human being now.

The worst part was that I now know that there were at least two child molesters at my alma mater when I was there: Dan Whitehead and the priest who couldn't keep his hands off of me for over a year.

Triggers truly are the Devil.

I just wish I knew what message the universe is trying to tell me.

I'm speechless. More than anything I just want this to end and get you back on the path of healing and enjoying your life, free from pain and strife.

*big hugs*

Wow. Just when I think you have rather a lot to deal with (to put it mildly) more horrible stuff happens. Hopefully they can deal with the lesions. Taking the headaches out of the equation would be a massive step forwards I imagine.

I'll be thinking off you and Ed and sending good vibes from the UK (not sure what the flight time is on those.)

FSeven wrote:

I'm speechless. More than anything I just want this to end and get you back on the path of healing and enjoying your life, free from pain and strife.

*big hugs*

+infinty

*big hugs* Definitely let us know if there's anything we can do to help! I'm poor again for the next couple of weeks, but even I would chip in what I could. After I get my new computer parts assembled, I'll have enough of a backlog to avoid buying games for at least a month or two.

Phoenix Rev wrote:

I am desperately trying to figure out what universal message I am supposed to be getting because, right now, the message I am getting is, "Here, let me throw another 40-ton boulder at you."

Today was the latest visit to the neurologist. This came on the heels of the unexpected death of political cartoonist Mike Ritter who shared an office with me when we worked together at the student newspaper at Arizona State University. It also came on the heels of our benefits adviser - the one helping me with the disability process - stepping out to do a Sunday BBQ this past weekend and ending up with 3rd degree burns over 35% of his body when the gas BBQer exploded when he was lighting it.

I got to my neurologist's office and he entered moments later, pulled up my chart on the computer and we discussed the MS diagnosis and the continuing headaches. Five minutes into the conversation, I fell apart. He immediately stopped the conversation and asked what I needed him to do. I told him that the fatigue was horrible, the libido was still very high, and because of the MS, my fingertips were numb. He said he had read the report from the spinal tap and said he was sorry the headaches were not related so there could be some closure there. He took down copious notes and then wrote down all of the scripts I have had since last year when this all started (March 28, 2013). Twenty-three scripts with no relief from the headaches. He wrote up #24 and #25 freely admitting that these were a roll of the dice.

He also said he could do something with the libido, but it would be drastic and would pretty much stop my libido from working until the medication wore off. As much as I have found great disdain for the continual sexual arousal disorder, being completely without a sex drive is not acceptable. So, I have passed on the option.

Then, he mentioned that the last round of tests came back and the "area of concern" in my brain is now being considered a lesion associated with the MS and seems to be growing. The other lesions are growing as well, and he said he was expediting my follow up with the MS specialist and sending me to a migraine specialist to see if she knows of any new information or treatment options to help fix things. He also hinted at some surgical options.

As we wrapped up, he asked how I was doing and I said I was okay, which we both knew was not true. And, because my libido was in overload and my neurologist is a exceptionally handsome and sexy Middle Eastern man who decided to grow out his beard, I could only thing of two things: how embarrassed I was that I broke down in front of him and that I wanted to rip his clothes off.

I then had to do some errands, and when I got home, I was treated to this news:

A former Brophy College Preparatory teacher was sentenced Monday morning to one year in prison for sexually abusing students in the 1980s.

That would be my former Vectors and Limits math teacher. He was a colossal a-hole then. He is a vile excuse for a human being now.

The worst part was that I now know that there were at least two child molesters at my alma mater when I was there: Dan Whitehead and the priest who couldn't keep his hands off of me for over a year.

Triggers truly are the Devil.

I just wish I knew what message the universe is trying to tell me.

In spite of all this, and more, you are alive.

Reaper81 wrote:
Phoenix Rev wrote:

I just wish I knew what message the universe is trying to tell me.

In spite of all this, and more, you are alive.

...and loved and respected by many, some of whom have never met you, but still know this to be true. From your actions, your character, and the depth of emotion and love you choose to share with us, we know this to be true.

just doesn't seem to be enough.

((((((((((hugs))))))))))