Oh, Everquest, though we have long since separated and your looks have not exactly improved with age, I still think about you when you were young and beautiful, and the long nights we spent together. They say you never really get over your first, and I suppose that's probably why it took so long to finally say goodbye for what now truly seems to have been the last time. How many times did we break up? Six? Seven? I'd always come back to you and time, too much time, would evaporate into lost nights. Eventually I'd grow bored and interested in someone younger, and then you'd go and have some work done, come back with promises of experimentation and I'd fall for you all over again.
I still long for you occasionally, though I know it can never be like it was. You're a hard addiction, strident in your rules and unforgiving in a way that some of the younger ones will never know. Maybe that's part of the appeal, the way you would dominate me again and again, despite my frustration. I wanted to tame you, but you were untamable by all but age. Even your replacement, its plastic facade only a hint at your youthful beauty, can never really match what we had together. Sure, I've found someone stable, reliable, forgiving, caring and less ruthless in World of WarCraft, and she and I are happy together now, but there's always a place in my heart for you Everquest. I'll never kill a rat without thinking of you.

There aren't many games that I remember with such clarity as Everquest. I remember the first rat I killed just outside of Qeynos, and the first time I adventured into Blackburrow, certainly to be killed in the next instant by a train Gnoll Guards. I remember the cackle of the skeletons, the sound of my wizard casting, the glow of the Will O' Wisps, and the feeling of constant peril the first time I traveled across the continent. I remember grouping with friends in the Field of Bone and feeling invincible when a high-level would buff us lowbies before they changed the rules. It was a harder world, but at times a much more rewarding one, and I look back on EQ with almost inexplicable fondness.