I just quit my job, a year from now.
Real world vent time. Sometimes I just need a place to put my thoughts in order and it's nice to have a community that won't hold it against me. Anyways, you have been warned.
Let me be clear about one thing up front; I'm really good at being a student. I have a knack for being able to deliver the type of work that teachers are happy with. This is why I'm a professional student at the moment. I got to the end of my undergraduate career and decided that applying for grad school was going to be a heck of a lot easier than trying to find a job in the real world. So I became a Master's student. then by some odd happenstance found myself, one year later, enrolled in a PhD program three states to the West.
And then it happened. A day which I firmly believes everyone at some point in their career. A moment I like to call 'the day of the great disillusionment.' It is a time when the bloom fades off the rose and the harsh realities of the world become readily apparent. For me it came in the form of a series of nagging philosophical issues about the nature of social sciences and sciences in general, as well as the nature of knowledge, and the way the scientific community communicates (or more often fails to communicate) with the broader population. I suppose the most succinct way to sum up my perspective is this; "science is not an exact science." I finally came to the conclusion that I simply could not stay in academia. I could do the work, but I would never find it fulfilling.
So here I stand, as a first year PhD student, with no real world experience, still dealing with the end of a three year relationship. It was a less than fun emotional place to be so on the advice of a good friend I went out of my way to do something I had wanted to do for years. I took a sign language class. This summer has been an awesome time for me because of it. I've had the opportunity to do something because I wanted to and not because it was the easiest option on the table. The passion and enjoyment I've felt about that one class has far outweighed my passion for just about anything else in my life, ever.
I came to the conclusion that I needed to make a decision. So I dropped my status from being a PhD student to an MA student (which included a substantial cut in pay). Now I will be done with school by June rather than three years from now. At first I had an "Oh God, what have I done moment" immediately after the decision and it was difficult to shake the feeling that I had become "a quitter," but that was very brief. Now I'm genuinely happy with my decision. It does mean I'm gonna have to start looking for work in the real world pretty soon, so don't be surprised if I come whining to you guys and gals for advice in the coming months.
Well thanks for reading, and thanks again for giving me a place to vent while I sort out my thoughts and feelings.
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Sucks growing up, but everyone has to do it eventually.
Good luck.
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MechaSlinky wrote:I'm not too clear on your disillusionment. I suppose it's a deeply personal issue, but if it comes down to the esoteric nature of academia, I'm not certain I can understand.
Be it materials science, polymer research, or an analysis of home spaces in Toni Morisson's Beloved, the intellectual heavy lifting of academia is often labored over seemingly insignificant minutia. Some of this is incomprehensible to someone that doesn't have a background in the subject, but it often leads to different ways of thinking.
But anyway, think of it this way: the US economy is in such a funk that your grad student endeavors will be on the cheap, and you'll be somewhat buffered by the warm womb of the university.
Congrats on the freedom and venting, in any case.
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I can speak only from my experience with social sciences (specifically communication). The simplest way to describe my feelings is that I feel that the majority of research done in my field has very little utility beyond ensuring continued employment for the researcher. This is not to say that good useful research is not done, but even when it is done I think that research is poorly communicated to the non-academic population.
In my mind the disillusionment is a personal moment of recognizing the problems with ones chosen field/career. At this point there are those who are truly passionate who attempt to solve the problems they see and better the system/field as a result. I recognized that as far as social science goes, I don't have it in me to be that guy.
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You won't be happy in the private sector, either.
Probably time to buy lottery tickets.
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Zoidberg you made a difficult choice but hopefully it's the right one for you (and it sounds as though it is). Good luck in sorting yourself out but June!
Now, onto science and discussion of science. I've mentioned in another thread a while ago that i do not consider medicine or social sciences to be science. They may include things like mathematics, physics, biology and chemistry to found their principles but nothing about them is 'certain' (TM)
. I know a lot of people would hate me for this conclusion and i would want them to know that i hold those subjects in no less of a regard than actual sciences just that i think the descriptor is incorrect in regards to the application of those precepts for the particular subject in question.
Social science (i'm presuming all types of this broad heading) is pretty complex and helps inform a lot of decisions from local council decisions on bin-placement and country-wide legislation on healthcare to the desired amount of light in a classroom for (generally) optimum attention span. The fact of the matter is that - like the proper sciences - there will be many dead ends, perhaps more because of the inherent uniqueness of every 'system' (read: person) to enter the frame of research. Just like in the core sciences having a negative result is not bad or undesirable - it informs future research and closes current avenues... and it is the reason why science in general should be free from capitalistic corporate meddling. There will never be a perfect research project and there will never be an ultimate answer for anything - just the best we can approximate for the time being with the current knowledge.
As to how the scientific community communicates with the outside world... i've resigned myself to thinking that it is impossible. Get any person who's been in a job for 20-40 years and have them explain it - in an in-depth manner - to a layperson outside of their field. Even if it's a librarian there will be so many basic, low-level assumptions that would have to be thought about and explained the amount of effort would not be worth the eventual benefit - per person.... not to mention that people who aren't interested wouldn't hang around to listen.
There are many initiatives that simplify these concepts and problems for the public and these are very successful at generating interest and a conversation with the general populace with regards to understanding science and yet there is still fear and misunderstanding about science in general... OMG! They're going to create a black hole with the LHC! (or something to that effect).... and yet, ironically, we're so dependent on scientific applications in our daily lives that, if they were lost or disabled for more than a few hours many lives might be lost in that time frame.... and there may be riots (which i find confusing but have seen happen in similar situations).
It's a long, hard and thankless task being any sort of scientist - especially those health and safety guys
- and to be honest, at least where i'm from, there isn't much money in it either.
Sorry for the long and rambling post.
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Zoidberg, the good part is that you have a year to figure out your job search. You could find some non-academic work related to your field of expertise, or do something totally different. Take the time to meet with people that can help you start thinking in the right direction. Your school's career services department is a good place to start, as well as your school (or multiple schools) alumni directories. If there is a professional association related to your field of interest, join it as a student.
There are lots and lots of places to network, and, unfortunately, that seems like its the best way to land a job. LinkedIn is your friend- figure out how to use it to your advantage.
The schism between academia and the general population is a function of the training to enter academia.
Through those years your paradigm falls into line with the school or academic society in which you have brought up.
This creates a distinct difference in lenses through which events are viewed, making communication between academics and non-academics increasingly difficult.
(This comment borrows heavily on Thomas Kuhn's "The Structure of Scientific Revolutions", a book which you should all read)
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I know you've recently decided to return to academia. Indeed, one day I too may hear the calls of the ivory halls of academe. At that point I'll know that I'm going back because I truly want to and not because it's the easy choice.
Also, lottery tickets does sound like a good investment.
Everybody else. Thanks for the support. I plan to turn this academic year into a time of volunteering and networking so that I can develop enough contacts to put me in a good position as graduation draws nigh.
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Well, that's part of the problem right there. The first year of the PhD seems to drive everyone into near- (or actual) depression. At the very least, drinking levels skyrocket. Though mine haven't come down by year 3...
I can sympathise with the disillusionment you felt about the disconnect between academia and the public. I stopped worrying about it when I realised that I didn't need to feel that my work would change the world, and that I was quite satisfied with the simple problem-solving aspect. I can see why a lot of people wouuldn't share this view, though.
The pay in academia will almost always be low, given the amount of training and experience required. There's no reason to stay unless you genuinely love either the work conditions or what you're doing. The trick now is working out what you will find fulfilling!
Edit: Don't forget to read PHD comics, just to remind yourself how mad you have to be to be a PhD student...
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I entered grad school theoretically as a PhD student, but I always pretty much figured I'd just go the Masters route (they let me decide after the first year). Talking to others in the field, I basically understood it this way: Masters is two years of relatively easy-going work, at the end of which I should be able to get a good job. PhD is an untold number of years (but no more than eight) of tedious work that is held to a much higher standard, and at the end you will be so pigeon-holed in your niche that you'll be lucky to find a job -- and it won't pay appreciably better then the jobs held by people with Masters. I left with a Masters degree. This was Aerospace Engineering -- other fields may be very different.
During my time as a grad student, I had two friends who were PhD students in the social sciences (one in sociology and one in psychology). Neither knew the other, but both complained to me about exactly the same situation -- the fact that the "science" being done in their fields was essentially make-believe. They both thought that statistics were being used by people who did not understand or appreciate the subject, leading to gross mistakes. More importantly, the basic tenents of science were applied only half-heartedly and in a slipshod manner. Both complained about how often people in their field mistook correlation for causation. I don't have enough direct experience with the social sciences to know to what degree their generalizations are true, but I often think about what they said when I hear people talking about science in terms of the social sciences. There is no reason that the various social sciences cannot be real sciences, I am just not sure whether they qualify today (my guess is it varies by discipline).
When I think about what does or does not constitute science, I usually think in terms of "Science as Falsification" by Karl Popper. I find it helpful in nailing down what it is about science that is different from non-science.
Anyway, good luck Zoidberg.
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Could be worse, Zoid - you could end up in Academic Management like me. Now I'm running round all day trying to keep academics happy by ensuring that they do the things they are supposed to, like wiping their ar*es, taking care of the few students they kindly deign to tutor and patiently explaining that their workloads are calculated on the students that they actually recruit, not the ones they predicted in May.
It's like herding cats. And now it's August, and the place would make a suitable setting for a Western ghost town....except it's in England. And in a city.
Anyways, good luck Zoidberg, I'm sure that you'll discover something you really do want to do.
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Sadly, your friends are right about the majority of the social sciences in my experience. Which is not to say that there are brilliant people out there doing really good, rigorous work. Sadly those people are not the majority.
As an interesting side note, my twisted path through grad school will have been as follows, first year masters, first year PhD, second year masters. Something I find humorous.
That sounds truly awful, you must have the patience of a saint.
That's brilliant, why haven't they made a movie like that? A western set in urban England. I'm calling my agent.
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Remember, you're only seeing one side of the story.
On the other you've got under-paid, over-worked due to lack of school (university school) funding and thus staff positions (e.g. no technicians or helpers - unless you're medicine
) and that's even before we get onto the supervising of postgraduate projects that they have to get funding for and also applying for various grants to keep their research alive. The last time my supervisor had any time for lab work was when he was a PhD student and the only lecturer that i know of that does some of his own lab work for projects he is interested in comes in on the weekend/after 6pm and doesn't have any kids or family to please. Of course, that's only how it is in my own department. Not sure about other kinds of academic institutions.
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Don't Social Sciences fall into the "Soft" Sciences category? Still a science, but much more open to interpretation. While at the PhD level just about everything is open to interpretation, the "hard" sciences like Mathmatics a little less so.
I'd also like to enforce what those above me said - the real world doesn't care about your research, unless they make money off it somehow. And you have to realize that usually the 99% of "average joe" out there won't fall into that category.
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I had never seen that comic before -- but wow, he really nails life as a grad student.
Oh, to be able to procrastinate like that again. I remember coming into the lab one night to run some experiments (for safety reasons I had to run my experiments at night when the lab was otherwise vacated) and one of my colleagues pointed out that one of the lab computers had a new game loaded on it. The game was called Doom. Because it was made by the same people who had made Wolfenstein 3D I figured I should take a look at it before I got started on my work. I sat down and played all the way through it in one sitting, finishing about the time that everyone else was showing up the next morning. My work was delayed by one night thanks to Doom -- a reasonable price to pay, I figured.
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There are a number of programs (often associated with English departments) devoted to teaching experts (in any field, academic or not) how to avoid jargon and obtuse writing. The Little Red Schoolhouse folks at UChicago seemed to pull in some fairly fat cash giving seminars and workshops for corporations, labs, law firms, federal judges, and other institutions of higher abstraction.
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Yes, but the general scientific population cannot afford (time-wise or money-wise) to be given this course. The people who tend to be the mediators between lay people and the non-lay people (the word escapes me
) are either teachers or those lucky few that have unquenchable enthusiasm for their subjects and an ability to communicate on any level their trade... these people are few and far between and are very special (e.g. Stephen Hawking).
There are usually also these types of PR people within universities (in this country at least) - as they move towards becoming the corporate entities that many of the unversities are in the US which has been the main fundamental difference in the way unis are run in our two countries - that are supposed to educate and guide the academics in communication and in fact there are courses that the post-grads are required to enter during the course of their PhDs/masters etc.
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You should write Phil Collins and ask for him to share his wisdom.
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The Academy is a rough place. It seem to my (from my very limited perspective) that what counts most if finding a place to practice what you love and ignoring the bullsh*t around you for all you are worth.
Fantastic stuff happens here that can't happen anywhere else. On the other hand, there is a whole lot of politics, nonsense and brilliant but lazy people dodging responsibilities to make it the paradise it seems on a good day. I'm thinking really hard about leaving my research institution for a community college. I won't have many of the resources and opportunities I have here, and the student populations are very different, but community colleges are about the students (the good ones are, anyway) rather than about the faculty. Having worked in both environments, I think I prefer the student-focus.
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Thanks for the comic link. Never heard of that strip before... and man, he's been doing it for 11 years.
I currently have a BA (plus a handful of grad credits), and I really love learning and going to school... it surely beats the alternatives in many ways. Even though my current pay is directly tied to academic credits, I really have no desire to get a masters, much less a doctorate in education.
I think the biggest problem with "academia" is simply that people see it as an END, rather than a means to an end. Look at what job you want... look at the requirements you need to do that job. IF you can do it with a BA, cool. If you need an MA, then get one... same thing with a PhD. If you're in school, though, just because you don't want to get "a real job," you're doing it wrong.
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And even then, you're often looking at 20-30+ years (at least in my field) between doing your research and it actually getting developed to the point where it can be used in the real world.
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The man speaks truth! Or at least my version of it.
School can be about the pursuit of knowledge - school is whatever you make it, really - but school is expensive and people need to eat. Simply pursuing knowledge is cheaper outside of a classroom.
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I am seriously not a fan of professional schools. It's all the bullsh*t, but with somehow even less dignity.
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Of course there's also the possibility that you may be doing something you really like and are interested in and would not be able to do outside of academia. In which case it is an end as much as any other job is. You may still want to move on to another job afterwards of course but this isn't unusual for any job in any industry these days and people who have done a PhD or MA/MSci/etc shouldn't be deterred from choosing to change their career path more than anyone else who switches.
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I still see knowledge as an end game.
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It's all about positioning?
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